The Reason

Today is 30th of Dec 2009, or i may say the last 2 days for this year .. but today i have meet some unhappy things happy in my life that i most hate appear and the reason i write this blog is to remind me in future that what and the things i more hate happen and also as a reason for me to remind me what and why i am sad n unhappy n angry.

Well today is 30th of December 2009 i have 2 things i feel unhappy n unsatisfied with my GF today, the 1st things is i feel my gf will feel shy and feel ashamed with me when i tie a hair band to walk with her.. what make me unhappy is i have notice my gf will feel this feeling to walk with me and feel i am making her lose her face when walking with me in shopping center in Dataran Pahlawan and in Mahkota Peraid. before that i thought that my gf will go through with me to face and problem, obstacle and no mater what happen or what i have change she will also hold my hand to walk through the difficulties but what make me shock today is everything is out of my expectation! secondly i feel very very very sad is that my gf will reply a guy commend and the guy is less or can say no contact with her at all .. and she know i hate this things happen but she act as nothing and yet still reply him, not that i not trust her, is that i dun like she reply or contact any guy without my knowledge!! i tend to write this out is to remind me next time why i am angry juz incase in future we discuss this again i have a clear mind of what had happen today. Sometimes is not that i not trust her, or scare she like someone else or someone like her(the guy that reply her) is that i cant think that my gf will reply him, in my mind i thought my gf will ask him who r u ? or dun reply him but it so disappoint me that she will reply him this is the problem happen between us. Solution is she may choose not to reply him! or reply to the gal that she wanted to reply ! i keep ask my self why dont she be clever bit ask him to get the ticket from me as the message says that he is going to meet my gf and take ti from my gf ! this is kind of a stupid idea..i have no idea with her.. and this blog may show as a prove that in future, this blog may be the prove and may act as a reference just incase i forget as i am so forgetful now a days...